The Phoenix Mentality

     The phoenix symbol is something that has kept coming up for me through out my life. It's been a theme for me. Living in the city of Phoenix, I see it every where I go. As the myth goes, or as far as I understand it, the phoenix is a beautiful bird made of fire. It is able to fly and soar through the sky for a few hundred years. Then inevitably it's fire goes out. It lands at it's nest, burns up, and dies because that is it's nature. All that is left is ash. But out of those ashes comes a new phoenix that is every bit as brilliant as that one before it. That phoenix too will live out it's life until the time comes for it's fire to burn out and the cycle repeats. This dynamic of life, death and rebirth is a universal truth one that we live out everyday. Our day begins anew, we live it, have experiences, and inevitably we have to sleep. Ourselves of yesterday have died and when we wake up a new version of us, the us of today is born. 

    This idea makes me think of when I used to work at a psychiatric hospital. It would be common for clients there to have emotional outbursts. Sometimes they can treat the staff very poorly and harshly. Shouting at us, calling us profanities sometimes all day only for us to comeback the next day and continue working with the same clients. One thing that touched me though was seeing the experienced behavioral health techs and nurses treat those same clients almost as yesterday never happen. Sometimes, those clients would regret the way the acted and apologize to the staff. What I have heard many times from the best staff members in those situations was "today is a new day." There is a certain level of understanding with people who work with mentally ill population. Those clients who become emotionally charged and have outburst like that have disorders that lead to them to act that way. So often they volunteer to go into inpatient facilities like I used to work at to improve themselves. They have acted that way in the past in different situations and they have had to face negative consequences because of it. The staff know this and try to give clients the opportunity to change by having acceptance when they have episodes like that.

    I see myself as my own client. My outbursts involve debilitating depression, crippling anxiety, and the resulting isolation that comes from it. There are negative consequences for this. I miss out on opportunities and even hurt the few relationships I have. Being my own counselor, I tell myself the next day, "today is a new day." The me of yesterday that avoided, felt sorry for myself and made poor decisions has burned out and is ashes. The me of today, well . . . hopefully will be better. Maybe not. Maybe I do it again. It doesn't matter, today is a new day. My mentality was inspired by a song, Phoenix Ignition by Thrice. Key lyrics from that song I hold onto is "A new renaissance A new fire each day." The Phoenix cycle continues. We live and die everyday and we naturally strive to improve. 

    What does this mean for social anxiety? If you truly struggle with with social anxiety, you will have set backs. You will fall back into avoidance. Like the Phoenix coming to the end of it's life. Some people struggle with this disorder since they were children and didn't know any better. Only as adults did they learn what they need to do. Frankly, it is inevitable that they are going to fall back into old habits. The only way they can make progress is if they have this Phoenix mentality. That they tell themselves "today is a new day" then they can rise from avoidance, isolation, and even depression. A new phoenix for a new day. 

You Gotta Have Faith

     Before you think that I am going to get preachy, let me clarify what I mean when I say "you gotta have faith." The goal of this blog is not to make a statement regarding any sort of religious belief. Whether you have such beliefs or not, this principle will apply to you. What do I mean then? Let me ask you this, if you are reading my blog it is because you struggle with social anxiety. So, do you believe you can truly overcome it? Do you have faith that things are going to work for you and that you can achieve your whatever goals you have in this area? These questions are important because at the end of the day there is no evidence that things will ever change for you. There are millions of people who struggle with social anxiety and many of them never make any real progress. So why should you be any different? You could look up statistics to see how many people make progress but that does not answer the question, "will you overcome social anxiety?" 

    You might be thinking, "there is no way I can know if I will ever really change." That is true. You don't know but what do you believe? This post is a good follow up to my last post where we talked about biases. Most people who struggle with social anxiety are biased against themselves. They do not believe they can function normally in social situations and the ones who are destined to never change do not believe they will. Those who have faith, believing they can change even though there is no reason for them to think that, are the only ones who have any real chance of changing and most of them do. In the past, I have been a part of and even ran social anxiety support groups. I have seen people who had faith they could change and I know they did because they invested their entire selves into making the changes they needed to make. And they certainly changed. I've seen people go off to be successful in their careers, find meaningful relationships and even get married. The ones who became successful fastest where they ones who never doubted they would change. I never heard them say, "I guess I'll be stuck this way forever." It was almost as if they could see the future and saw themselves being successful so for them it was only a matter of time.

    You might also be thinking "how do I find faith when I don't have it?" That is a great a question, thank you for asking! When we have struggled with something for a long time often times things can seem hopeless. There is a mountain of evidence in the past where we avoided situations, forced ourselves in situations where the anxiety was too much, or other people have criticized us for being weak and passive (or worse). That is why I use the term "faith." Faith does not need evidence. It doesn't matter what anyone says, if you have faith in something you will believe it. As a matter of fact, people have done amazing things because they had faith. In Christianity, missionaries travel all over the world and overcome incredible barriers simply because they have faith in their beliefs. People in all religions accomplish great things because of their faith. (I mentioned Christianity only because that is the one I am most familiar with). In a lot of ways faith is simple but hard. Less is more with faith. If you find yourself roaming internet forums or even delving into research studies you are filling you brain with things that can create doubt. A caveat that I should add here is that I am not saying you shouldn't do research but you need to be careful that you do not catch your fretting over the statistics. It is good to find different strategies and approaches to making progress but do not worry about the likelihood of changing and do not compare yourself to other people in forums. Put you brain power into being successful.

    Here are some tips to help you grow your faith so that you can change. First, protect your mind from negative influences. You might need to stay away from certain places on the internet or even certain people in your life. Also, you want to seek out encouraging sources. Find sources that tell you that you can succeed and give you a different perspective. Expose yourself to these daily. Second, envision yourself overcoming social anxiety completely. What does that look like for you? How did you get to that point? What work did it take? Notice that faith, in this instance, is not passive. I would never suggest that you can sit around, not do anything and overcome social anxiety. Imagine yourself taking the time each day to prime your mind with encouraging and rational messages and challenging yourself in new social situations. See yourself gradually becoming more confident and outgoing. Make it real in your mind and practice that everyday. Instead of dwelling on what is wrong with you, dwell on what is right with you and why your future will be different than your past. Also, create a phrase that will remind you of this. Something like "I am making progress," "I will get there," or anything that speaks to you. Use that phrase when you confront anxiety and afterwards when you are tempted to dwell on the situation. There are many ways you can use your internal dialogue to help you feel more confident but that will take another post. Lastly, put your faith into motion by acting on it. If you feel anxious going up and talking to people, try it. It will most likely be difficult and might not be entirely positive. Hold on to your faith that things will get better even when there is every reason to believe that it won't. This way you will keep going and keep making progress. That is the only way.

    There is a very rational and logical reason why you should have faith that you can overcome social anxiety and it is simply because that is your best shot at being successful. If you dwell on your doubt and why you will fail then you will fail. If you focus on being successful then you will be. It takes a lot of faith to believe you will be stuck in social anxiety forever. Why not direct your faith towards overcoming it?